Fear ...

People usually say they can't forget the fear of their life. Therefore, I remember very well the circumstances of mine. It unfortunately got under my skin in a bad way. I used to hear my friends and family saying that crime has been encreasing in my city Fez. However, I've never felt it until I experienced it. Actually now I'm afraid that I won't forget what happened because, you know, most of the recent events I've lived vanished from my memory, but I have a feeling that this one will remain in my heart and mind the way a rock remains standing in the ocean.
It all started when I was waiting for my parents to pick me up. It was dark, yes, but the space wasn't very empty and also not very crowded. I get goose bumps everytime I remember the details of what happened.
A man, or a guy came next to me. At first I really didn't suspect him as being a thief, I pretended not seing him. And yet, I moved slowly away from him in order not to bring his attention. However, the further I got from him, the closer he was getting from me. Realizing that, scared the hell out of me, I was frightened to death. He asked me what time was it, and of course, me like a fool, I responded him, that was when he ordered me to get him my watch and my cell if I had it on me. I wanted to like shout and ask for help but I couldn't. He had his f***ing dirty hands around me, and put his small knife up my hips. He threatened me, saying I'd better remain still!
I was breathing heavily, he was stinking. I was asking God to help me out.
Suddenly and out of nowhere, a man came and he tried to help, he told the thief to go away and leave me alone, otherwise, he would call the police. He sounded serious, thus the jerk, scared of jail went away. Then, I was free again, I thanked the man who helped me, he saved me.
The fear of this makes me shivering, I wouldn't want any of my acquaintances to experience what I went through, not even my enemies. It's hard, seriously. May God protect us all. 

Care...

Life is for loving, sharing, caring, smiling, forgiving, laughing, hugging, helping, dancing, wondering, healing, singing and even more caring. Though, I was told that sometimes we care too much and that would make our lives up side down, so don't care too much... What a controversy! If we omit "caring" from the list, life wouldn't be as it has to be, would it...?
How are we supposed not to care too much? How are we people supposed to control those feelings which are iron like. 
The act of caring is powerful, a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment and much more... All those things have the potentiel to turn a life around.
After all, aren't we Human? What makes us who we are, what makes us different from others is that God blessed us with the gift of "having feelings", in other words the gift of caring. Therefore, I wouldn't find an answer for my friend who asked me about the reason why I care that much. I guess it's just how I am, how most people are. I don't care that much very easily, I have many acquaintances, and friendship relationships in which I just care for my friends, but they aren't all special. So, I don't care for others easily, but when I care, I care... much, genuinely. I don't think it's a defect in a soul to care too much, is it...?
I think that some poeple avoid caring very much in order not to get hurt or not to be broken in someway, someday...because they know they'll find it hard to bring the broken peaces back together...
Others on the other hand, who doesn't care at all, they actually cared once but have been deeply hurt; that's why they let go on caring. They got tired of being kicked when they were already down. They got tired of being used, they got tired of doubts, got tired of fucking sleepless nights, got tired of (...) To make a long list short, they got tired of taking crap they don't deserve.
At last, I won't say don't care nor don't care too much, I will say live your life they way it has to be, the way you want it, they way your heart wants it to be whether with caring much or less. No matter what, try to remain happy, just try because I know that it won't be as easy as words.